Monday, August 31, 2015

Diary of a DietBet: Day Two

I'm ashamed to admit this, but I resent the fact that I have all this weight to lose. It's difficult to articulate why precisely I feel this way, but I'm pretty sure it stems from the fact that I was a giant stinking hypocrite about gaining weight while I was pregnant. I always told myself I wasn't going to let my pregnancy be an excuse to eat all the things, and yet, here I sit having done exactly that. It's one of those situations where I knew that I could and should have made better choices. I don't even need hindsight to tell me that; I knew during the pregnancy. I'm not looking for anyone to tell me that it's okay or whatever. I'm just acknowledging that I feel this way, allowing myself to feel that way and now I'll be able to move forward and get over it.

Cecilia and Mommy: 5 Months Old

I feel like I just wrote the 4 month post, but that's probably because it was a week late. Nap time has gotten a lot better this month and it's rarely a battle anymore. Night time remains excellent despite the occasional 4 a.m. wake-up but a bottle or some patience usually solves that. She's starting to fall into a pattern now, which makes everyone's lives a little easier.

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I like sitting up! I will smile about this!

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Really Mom? Really?

  • Rolling front to back - she rarely ever stays on her back and I would definitely say she has mastered this skill.
  • Sitting - she's not 100% stable yet and she can't get herself to a seated position but she loves being able to look around.
  • Trying to drink from Mommy and Grammy's water cups
  • Her teething ring
  • Crinkling paper with her little hands (magazines beware!)
  • Applesauce (kinda, sorta, maybe)
  • Peas on Earth
  • The lampposts in our driveway - I don't get it, they're not even lit when we walk by them but they are completely fascinating to her.
  • Licking her night light (babies be weird, man.)
  • Bath time (hooray!)
  • Charlie - she loves to laugh at him, but he basically looks like a moving stuffed animal so I get that.

  • Rolling front to back - this seems to startle her every time she does it.
  • Peas
  • Oatmeal (This is unacceptable to me.)
  • Being forced to stay on her back while her diaper is being changed

I finally feel like I'm myself again, albeit with 42 extra pounds. I started a DietBet with some of my coworkers yesterday for some extra motivation. Hopefully it won't suck as much as it did last time.

Previous Posts:
1 Month
2 Months
3 Months
4 Months

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Diary of a DietBet: Day One

Yup, this is a weekend post for the first time in ...forever? Ages? I have no idea and no one really cares anyhow. If anyone recalls, I did a DietBet just before I got pregnant with Cecilia and hated it the entire time. I'm in a bit of a different situation now, so here we go again, but with daily diary journals this time.

nom the baby, nom her.

Weigh-In: 175.8 (I winced when I wrote this out, ugh.)

Hunger is not an emergency is my mantra today.

Although, according to Cecilia it is but she's a baby so impulse control is not in her current repertoire of skills. She had a pretty rough day today. Which means I also had a pretty rough day, so I'm sitting here staring at the baby monitor as I type this, willing her to go to sleep (as if this ever works) and through the night. She needs it.

Eric and I do too.

I had more that I wanted to write about today, but all my thoughts have currently flown the coop. Perhaps tomorrow I will be more well-rested and more coherent.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Cecilia and Mommy: 4 Months Old

Nap time is still a crapshoot. Some days are better than others, but there's still not an ounce of regularity when it comes to duration. Fortunately bed time is pretty straightforward and she sleeps really well at night. We're talking 6PM - 6AM well here, and it makes life so much better.

I really need to start keeping better track of the cute little Cecilia stories I want to share because by the time I sit down to write this post, my brain is totally empty (more on that later).  All I know is that in the last couple of months, my Peanut has changed from a tiny little grump to a generally smiley and happy baby.
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Basic Baby Stats:
  • Weight: 13 lbs 5.5 oz (+2 lbs 9 oz)
  • Length: 25"  (+1")
  • Head Circumference: 42.5 cm (+2 cm)

  • Sleeping on her stomach, much to the dismay of her mother
  • Rolling over
  • Drinking from her bottles
  • Bath time - hooray! She doesn't hate it anymore!
  • Being held in a standing position in Mommy or Daddy's lap
  • Nap time - according to Cecilia this is the worst form of baby torture

It is absolutely amazing to me that I have any hair left on my head after this past month. I knew it was going to happen but I'm still shocked at the quantity of lost hair. I've been shedding worse than Charlie and he's a freaking dog. I'm constantly picking my hairs out of Cecilia's little hands and off of my clothes. I really hope it ends soon because I won't have any hair left if it doesn't.

When I was pregnant, I read about the forgetfulness phenomenon known as pregnancy brain. I never experienced this alleged pregnancy brain to the degree it's often described so I considered myself lucky. Now, mom brain, on the other hand has become a legitimate issue. I can't keep conversations that I've had with people in my head longer than the duration of the actual conversation unless it's important and I know that fact. I'm constantly asking myself if I told someone something, so if I'm quieter than usual, it's possible I'm trying to figure out if I told you something already.

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1 Month
2 Months
3 Months