Monday, November 12, 2012

Avoiding

Hi blog.

I’ve been avoiding you. I'm even going to be cliche about it; it’s not you, it’s me.

Here’s the thing: I’m boring. I do roughly the same things every day with very little variety.

I get up, I eat breakfast, I go to work, I go to the gym and I come home. Rinse, repeat. It leaves me with precious little to write about my daily life. I certainly wouldn’t discuss my career here, short of saying that it often causes me to become extremely busy. Anything beyond that is, in my opinion, unprofessional.

I dislike writing too much about my personal life with my friends and family here because it’s, you know, personal. It’s just too hard find that fine line between what should be shared and what shouldn’t sometimes. I also find that in doing that, it's hard to be authentic. I don't want to come off like my life is all puppies and rainbows. It's certainly not, but sometimes I feel like giving credence to the negative aspects of things gives them more power over me than they should.

So, really then, what’s the point of having a blog?

For me, it’s an outlet for my hobbies, a place to share the things that I love to talk about and would happily drive the people I love insane doing exactly that. That said, my hobbies tend to have a fluid nature to them. I start things, get what I want out of them, give up and move on. I occasionally return to them (e.g. knitting) but sometimes they end up shelved away in a closet. Or I move on to a different hobby that I enjoy more, which brings us to the reason that I’ve been avoiding the blog.

I have mostly given up running in favor of lifting (heavy) and Zumba. When I got injured earlier this year and had to adapt to find new things that I could do that didn’t exacerbate my problem. After I finished physical therapy, I just couldn’t seem to make the time to fit runs into my exercise schedule. I’m no longer interested in running long distances or running much at all. I’ll occasionally go for a short 2-3 mile run once a week but the passion just isn’t there anymore.

I think you could understand why someone who doesn’t really want to run that much anymore might not want to post on her blog entitled “Run Sqrl, Run!” I certainly don’t want to change the name because I still enjoy running just to run every so often and running got me through some tough times in the past. Running just won’t be my main focus for fitness anymore, but that doesn’t mean I can’t share my new loves.