Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Is it maintainable?

Two years ago, every time I made a fitness decision I asked myself this question, "Is it maintainable?" I had realized that I had a tendency to get ahead of myself, take on too much and burn out. It was the same with my dietary plans; I always over-designed them and didn't build any resiliency into them.  Forcing myself to discern whether or not a particular course of action was maintainable for me taught me to choose the things I thought I could do indefinitely, which is a rather important quality given that I was trying to create a lifestyle change.

To that end, I've been thinking a lot about my training lately. I've been unenthusiastic about it and extremely unmotivated to do it. That, to me, is like a gigantic flashing neon signal to stop and reassess what I'm doing and why it's making me feel that way.
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Quite some time ago, I posted about some race aspirations of mine that I had during a moment of endorphin induced insanity, but I'm not so sure about them anymore.  I've been trying to increase my distance, but I'm not enjoying myself anymore.

I never want running to feel like a chore and that's what it feels like right now. I was enjoying training to increase my 5K time and general total body fitness last summer and winter so I think it's time I go back to that. Does that make me any less of a runner? I certainly don't think so, but I struggled a little bit with it since so many others in the healthy living blogosphere seem to be running half and full marathons with regularity. I guess I forgot my own advice and started comparing myself to other people.

Healthy balance for me means loving my workouts and loving my training, not pushing myself to achieve something that I never really wanted to achieve before I started comparing myself to other people. It means having the time to do everything (from messing around in the kitchen to snuggling up on the couch with my Kindle) that I enjoy doing without these things turning into a drudge. Healthy balance to me also means understanding when it's time to drop a course of action that is taking me down an unhappy path, and that is exactly what I intend to do.

I'm feeling a little down lately. I'm starting to perk up now that I've gotten this off my chest, but help me out and leave me a little comment down below. I want to hear about what's making you happy right now!